I woke this morning
with a nervous feeling
I stumbeled to get ready
feared to what I think ahead -
Sun is out
Warmth around
yet it is still cloudy in my soul -
Life is balanced not me
Fear motivates
strength provides
Life ahead is unsure -
by mid-day clouds are in the sky
cool breeze still in the air -
running all over
helps me escape
think of someone else
takes me into their world
take me out of mine -
For a time, life is better
focus on someone
Someone isn't me
Close my eyes
Brighten my darkness night
Whereever you are
I am not -
I am not sure where you are
but life is still the same -
Clouds is still out
busy streets ahead
People are not in
The yes person has gone home -
Knocking on doors
One by one
Life is a window - no relfection looking in
but looking out you see
what you think you see -
People are tired
I am tired of hearing no -
Nothing changes
unless you deal
No matter what you do
damned if you do
damned if you don't -
you stay in all day
you leave here and there
nobody cared until now
why is that?
You try hard sometimes
not hard enough -
you think twice as to why never hear why
after three in a day
people calm down -
some do not
whispers are heard
people walk away with a snear
you wonder why?
the light coming in
should bring comfort
yet you don't feel it -
you see in your mind
your future wondering where
you are you think you are in a better place
till someone is cold
they hurt you
take your soul
until you say no -
at the end of a day
the drive ahead
you reflect your day
wondering why you did what you said you wouldn't -
the day controls your feelings
people say unkind words
treat you less when you are more -
it is easier to be mean
than to try to be nice
when you are the one
that is picked on -
people talk about you
you are not there to defend
untrue words are spilled to those who believe
like to gossip
even if it means
against you
no one really cares -
even though
you are close
you think you can trust
yet you know
you can't
yet words are exchanged
people love words against others
when the truth is not there -
they hide behind your pain
of the words that hurt
it is easy to be mean
than to be nice -
when one talks of the lies
and must tell all
when your heart is
what is attacked
why should they
care about lies
even if they believe it
is the truth
when you know it isn't -
people like the light
the way they are spotted
they must be first
so you know
makes them feel better than you
when you hear it from them
they tell you lies
they tell lies to others
not matter what the truth is
you are the one who knows
they refuse to know -
it is dark with no sun
clouds are above the moon
the little man looks down
to see the pain people use
other people hurt
at the hands of others
even if the intent is not there -
talk is cheap
but gossip people pay to hear
just ask brittney spears -
no matter how hard you work in life
it is you that matters
not who you see every day -
someday you get up
wonder why
blame others for life
take control
people cause you to stop
people rain on your parade
while you are floating
for news for your future -
people think they know you
they talk behind your back
feelings are hurt you can't defend yourself -
you are not there for words spoken
words spread around to everyone
you are alone troubled
need care
people step on you
lie about you
you stand up walk away
you look back
words are said
you are not good enough
they say they don't know you
if they did
they would see
you are not -
what they can say
they need to feel
they can cause issues as they have many
they are lost themselved
they see themselves in the window
looking out
they can see imperfections
with colored glasses
yet they see clearly
in the reflection of themselves -
they run easier to find fault elsewhere
to gossip to others
about what they see in you -
avoid the truth about themselves
they are lost in their own world
better than you
why you?
and not them
they ask -
easier to find fault
than to walk in truth
You move on in life
they sit
don't move
blame you
treat you badly
for what you want
not what they want
you walk the talk
they gossip
they laugh
without pay at your expense
cheap...
make fun of you
they laugh because of you
they laugh at you
they can't laugh at one's reflection
they see imperfection
they look through
they know the person
they see ahead -
mind went blank
familar face looking back
they refuse to admit they r hurt
to see how they act to other reflections
you walk out the door
whispering is happening
wondering what is going on
they refuse to say
you know it is about you -
sick to the stomach
why they hurt you
try hard to smile
walk tall to avoid
they giggle at you
about you
they think you are the joke
you look out to feel the heat of the sun
clouds above -
wonder when you can go
not come back -
your heart loves passion
is there?
they stomp on u
walk away
tears heading out
holding back
wanting to leave
wonder why me
what happen
hurt words said in the air
falling your way
they laugh could care less
wonder why they have to be so cold -
they hurt u
they take your soul
leave u in the dark
they walk away
because they think who they see
when u r not
you r hurt
they want
they won
by me
